Saturday, January 10, 2009
How does it feel to have somebody to say that he loves you but doesn't want to be with you? How would you feel when you hear his good brother saying that he met other girls when you all quarrelled? And then he comes and say, its up to you to trust him. I stayed at home trying to sort out what exactly should I do, I hate this feeling of confusion. I asked him for a talk but he didn't want to. Perhaps, looks really matters. I never really believed in outer looks, although I have to agree I would never go with someone that has a big mole on their face but not to the extent of finding somebody super duper handsome. I got it, but he is definitely not like me. I believe he wants somebody prettier. And I finally understand why they say SAC girls are bitches. Of course, she is pretty otherwise the fish wouldn't get hooked. Then again, I saw it for myself how true love these words don't exist only in movies. And I admire how people can keep to themselves and just remain strong infront of people. Its really hard to do it but I have to do it. How much can people share your burden with you, they are not the ones facing it.Yesterday I went to TP's open house and I start to ponder what kind of life would I have in poly or maybe even ite. Its just too fast that results are coming, and I don't want to know my results. What if I can't go anywhere? Sigh, life sucks lah k. Its just so sad to see the world getting so competitive that its going to destroy more things from people's lives.
ACCEPTANCE 7:20 PM
